Thursday, April 14, 2011

How Stupid am I?

And so it happens...Sometimes crap just flies out of my mouth.

I have a teenage daughter.  It's challenging.  She challenges me.  Actually, to give credit where credit is due - she is the main reason for my growth - personally and emotionally.  But, growing isn't easy and it most definitely isn't constant.  Sometimes I step back into my own teenage shoes and go toe to toe with her on issues and that's what happened today.  She wants something.  I don't think she should have it (based upon my ultimate parenting wisdom). End of discussion, right?  After all, I am the parent.  I have spoken.

It doesn't normally happen that way.  Yeah, who am I kidding. I don't think it ever happens that way.  She fights me tooth and nail, I fight myself, I fight her back... and then something stupid happens.  I say to her, "When you have children you'll understand how difficult this is." She says to me, "Maybe I won't get married and have children."  And then, my ultimate parenting wisdom goes out the door and I say, "Good, because it's a terrible experience."

OH MY GOD.  What a stupid thing to say.  Um, back-up, reel the tape back in... erase, erase...whoops.

She runs out the door (after my ultimate parenting wisdom) crying...  Ugh.  Double ugh...

Thankfully, she ALWAYS has her cell phone with her.  I text her to come home.  I tell her she's not terrible, she's a blessing.  It's the arguing that's terrible.

I hear the front door open a few minutes later.  Sigh...  She's home.  Thank God.

1 comment:

  1. Oh, man! I've been there too, but mine isn't quite old enough to remember...better learn this lesson now before she's a teen...'cause she'll be a stubborn, strong-willed one just as I was. Your story puts my own mother's comments to me at that age in perspective, though the way you immediately repaired it was exactly what a child needs. Thank you for the momma lesson!

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