VAGINA

A vagina post.  Every blog needs one...

I recently had a conversation with a girlfriend and she was telling me about how taking hormones (Estrogen, I think?) can help with depression and other premenstrual symptoms.  She explained that the best way to take the hormones is not orally, but to put them where they can do the most good.  We actually had this conversation twice.  The first conversation was over the phone.  The second was via email.  She explained how she was using Estrogen cream and applying it in her Vagina.

I don't know what came over me.  I read the email and saw the word "vagina" and got the giggles.  I was a 41 year old turned 12.  I was thinking, "did she really type the word v-a-g-i-n-a?"  Hahaha... VAGINA.  Haha... Ha. 

Yes, I completely lost it.  So I had to let her know.  I replied to her email and told her how I had a hard time noticing anything in her email besides the word "vagina".  I reverted to a pre-teen state and lost all sense of maturity...  Haha... Vagina...

The next day came around and I hadn't checked my email.  I hadn't really thought of our email conversation at all.  I was "over" my immaturity spell and was moving on.  The hormone conversation had completely left my mind and then, right about lunch time, I received a text on my phone.

I non-chalantly checked my phone and saw who the text was from so opened it right away.  There was only one word in the text message:

"VAGINA"

I started laughing so hard I damn near started rolling on the floor.  Who knew that the female body part could bring such joy to a 41 year old woman?  Wait a minute... actually, THAT didn't sound right... Hmmm....

Hey!  Psst!!   "vagina"

HAhaHAhaHAhaha...ha. :-)

What I want

I want to be free.

I want to be free from that feeling of anxiety or guilt that I get all too often.
I want to take action and move forward.
I want to face my fears head on and show them who's boss.
I want to have compassion and forgiveness for myself and others.
I want to feel acceptance of those things that are out of my control.
I want to be aware of my addictive tendencies so that they cannot control me. 
I don't want to be perfect, but I want to be perfectly me.
I want to experience the world around me and not be locked in the world that exists in my head.
I want to be an example to others of how to live freely.
I want to feel love in its purest form.
I want to take advantage of each and every day.
I want to hear my friend's stories and participate in their lives.
I want to show my children how great life can be. Every day.

I want to be free so I'm choosing it now.