Thank you - Sara Bareilles - for saying how I feel

"Uncharted"

No words
My tears won't make any room for 'em, oh
And it don't hurt
Like anything I've ever felt before

This is no broken heart
No familiar scars
This territory goes uncharted

Just me
In a room sunk down in a house in a town
And I don't breathe
Though I never meant to let it get away from me

Now I have too much to hold
Everybody has to get their hands on gold
And I want uncharted

Stuck under the ceiling
I made, I can't help the feeling I'm going down
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how
To get started
It's all uncharted

Each day
I'm countin' up the minutes 'til I get alone
'Cause I can't stay
In the middle of it all, it's nobody's fault

But I'm so low
Never knew so much I didn't know
Oh, everything is uncharted

I know I'm getting nowhere
When I only sit and stare like I'm going down
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how
To get started
It's all uncharted

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart
I love to watch the colors fade
They may not make sense
But they sure as hell made me

I won't go as a passenger, no
Waiting for the road to be laid
Though I may be going down
I'll take in flame over burning out

Compare
Where you are to where you wanna be
And you'll get nowhere

I'm going down
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how
To get started

I'm going down
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how
To get started
It's all uncharted

Inspiration

I need it.  I need it bad!  Not the kind of inspiration that you get from someone or something else... the kind that bubbles up inside of you and points you in the right direction, tells you where to go.

It's the answer to the question, "What am I going to do with the rest of my life?"  It doesn't have to be a complete answer, but a "start here", "aim in this direction", "go forward", "just do it!"...kind of answer.

I've heard it before, felt it... but it doesn't always stick... Maybe that's because I'm ignoring it or putting it aside and focusing on things that are distractions, side roads...

Dear God,
Please help me clear my mind and be open to a wonderful future filled with inspiration, joy, excitement and LIFE.  I'm ready.  Help me stay ready.
Thank you, God.
Amen.

Inspiration. Breathe it in...Life is good.