I just wanted to tell you that "I know".
I know that I could have done better. I see where I made mistakes.
Even when I say out loud, "You did this to me and hurt me." I think about what I did that hurt you.
I think about how I acted, thought and felt and how it could have been different. Would things be different now? Maybe... maybe...
I can't go back and change everything I did and how I reacted. I don't know what would have happened if I had the ability to see things as I do now.
I am thankful that I am able to see more clearly now, because it means the future will be a more positive place, for me, for you... for anyone I interact with.
At some point I hope to make this amends to you. I'd like you to know. All those things you think about, if you think about the same things I do... you're right. I made mistakes. I could have done better, I could have done more. It's not all your fault.
I know.
