Have you ever had a day where it feels like time is just standing still? It's like the calm before the storm, the eye of the hurricane...
I mailed something today. Something that will impact me and my family for the rest of our lives. I don't want to talk about it, say what it is, or think of where it's going. It's just in the mailbox...waiting...as time stands still...
I prefer to stay in this still moment and not think about anything but this moment. I don't want to predict the future, anticipate anyone's reactions, try to protect myself from the pain that is inevitable, or make plans. I just need to be still. It feels safe. I'm safe.
I know it won't last, but I am so thankful for this still moment, this feeling of calm. Everything else is so very far away. Thank God...for holding time still - if only just in my mind.
